{"id":2460,"date":"2025-12-02T15:09:00","date_gmt":"2025-12-02T15:09:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/olgaszynkarczuk.com\/?p=2460"},"modified":"2026-02-06T15:46:02","modified_gmt":"2026-02-06T15:46:02","slug":"painting-fridges-magnets-window-visit-for-window-wonderland","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/olgaszynkarczuk.com\/pl\/painting-fridges-magnets-window-visit-for-window-wonderland\/","title":{"rendered":"PAINTING FRIDGES\/MAGNETS\/WINDOW VISIT FOR WINDOW WONDERLAND"},"content":{"rendered":"

Trying to work on a painting receiving a phone call from my mom and my kids wanting to talk to me course being angry because I\u2019m trying to do something getting frustrated getting annoyed that someone\u2019s calling interrupting telling them Off that I\u2019m busy that I can\u2019t talk because the paint is gonna dry Disconnecting immediately feeling guilty and angry and sad and trying to really just finish this painting and put a bit of that anger in that sadness and that feeling of fairness why does making why does having kids make me feel like I can\u2019t just have my freedom and just do it and just create I have to constantly be interrupted by every day in the normal life and it really is just sometimes really fucking annoying because you\u2019re trying to do something. It\u2019s just for you. It just feels like there\u2019s never space for that because whenever you do it you just end up feeling guilty like you shouldn\u2019t have you shouldn\u2019t have given that time to yourself in your own creation. You should always be available when they need you and they will always need you so there\u2019s just no escape. I\u2019m feeling trapped in this Stereotype of mother not being able to separate herself from her kids even if she manages physically mentally it\u2019s just always there. They\u2019re always there and any sort of attempt to just be with yourself and with something more important for just a few hours just seems impossible. The brown paint is the sadnessand despair. The red is anger, annoyance, constantly permanently, trapped. after the past, feeling a bit more peaceful, wiping away with water too much brown pain that I\u2019ve put on trying to go back to the lighter underneath accepting that those feelings are just gonna be part of the process of life and maybe the fact there is just something I need to do what I do better and if I channel it, it helps to create something more honest.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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02.12.25 – PAPER LAMP NUMBER 3<\/strong><\/h2>\n\n\n\n

Working on the third paper lamp in the studio today getting really frustrated trying out something that was supposed to be easier and simpler and it\u2019s not working instead of putting the entire paper in the tub and getting them wet. I\u2019ve been spraying the paper in separate sections and trying to pin that to the mannequin and it\u2019s just been a nightmare the paper is ripping. I feel like I completely lost all control over what\u2019s happening with it and I\u2019m just trying to save the situation because This stage will not be able to make another lamp from scratch so the lesson from this is next time don\u2019t just don\u2019t do this stick to the previous idea. Go to the bathroom make an entire wet and then paint it because I feel like it\u2019s just works differently when I do it like that, but it\u2019s gonna have to work this way. There\u2019s nothing else I can do at this stage. I’m just going to have to go with this version for now and hope for the best<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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