Feeling not good enough jealousy laziness trying to make excuses procrastination finding something to clean that really bothers me worrying about money and thinking how to make it stressing about not making enough work. Fear of creating something bad fear of offending someone so worrying about what other people think in general They worry that if I am too focused on my art, I am becoming a bad mother who ignores her children so fear of abandoning or feeling abandoned because that\u2019s what happens. It happened to my grandmother, so in general anxiety around, focusing too much on myself and my practice resulting in ending up alone and lonely, but also doing work that will not be good for anyone to notice fear of doing shit work and becoming invisible and abandoned.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My thoughts from the discussion:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My thoughts after Thursday\u2019s lecture, I was thinking about the whole, \u201crevealing myself\u201d, admitting to not feeling precious about my work and the reactions I got from some students, who thought differently. I wonder how my work would change if I decided to stop recording it whether I would treat it as more valuable and precious. That said I still felt the same way before I started recording I love the idea of someone else but me enjoying it. I love hearing people\u2018s interpretations of my work when they\u2019re explaining what led them to wanting to buy a piece, they\u2019re sometimes so much more meaningful and deeper than what I thought while creating it. Therefore I am still quite unsure whether not being precious about my work is something negative I might want to change or if it\u2019s the absolute opposite. Also when comparing my pieces to my children, whether when I \u201csend them away\u201d would I worry where they are in the world and just sort of not want to let go. I don\u2019t know. I think I was raised in a way where giving your children the freedom to travel the world, gain that experience and giving them a chance to be on their own and succeed on their own is something that I think about my own kids. That\u2019s something that my mom thought about me when I started traveling the world so yeah, I guess that\u2019s just another thought that I had about sending my work into the world.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A THOUGHT AFTER SEEING THE BLUE TREES AND ALSO TALKING TO BEN ABOUT THE PURPLE THAMES IDEA: <\/p>\n\n\n\n
The role of Art being beautiful and attention grabbing is to draw attention to important issues. But it does not neccessarily need to be aggressive and provocative and didactical.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Also loved these quotes from “At work in the Ruins”<\/p>\n\n\n\n
“Art is allergic to the word should” and “Our job as artists is to complicate things”<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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