{"id":2262,"date":"2026-01-24T19:21:47","date_gmt":"2026-01-24T19:21:47","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/olgaszynkarczuk.com\/?p=2262"},"modified":"2026-01-24T19:21:48","modified_gmt":"2026-01-24T19:21:48","slug":"pouring-paint-experiment-and-poem","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/olgaszynkarczuk.com\/pl\/pouring-paint-experiment-and-poem\/","title":{"rendered":"POURING PAINT EXPERIMENT AND POEM"},"content":{"rendered":"

So the idea of using a sanding tool to move the paint failed completely. I poured the paint, turned the super noisy monster on, placed the fridge door on two boxes, placed the sanbder under the fridge door and the paint didn’t budge, didn’t move a single milimiter.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

So my next idea was to just hold it vertically and let it drip. Amd that actually worked! I was terrified, I had absolutely lost control over what’s going to happen next other than knowing gravity will keep pulling the paints down. But I just gave up, gave into it, started pouring the paints directly on top of other paints and watching the incredible game of colours unveil in front of my eyes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Loosing myself completely in the process for the last 3h, pouring, splashing, spraying, but also unable to give up control completely, wondering how long before I start nervously cleaning things up? These few sentences from “Baby on Fire Escape” resonate in my head: “how can a parent be “absolutely free”? Alice wrote frankly about this conflict in her much-reprinted, groundbreakingly frank essay on her motherhood, “One Child of One’s Own.””<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Random thoughts popping into my head: Art is self-care for me, helping me to heal childhood\u2019s wounds.<\/strong> I’m sure somebody else said that already. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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POEM<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The Monsters inside me<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The Demogorgons.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The Hydes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

They come out late in the evening<\/p>\n\n\n\n

After two glasses of wine<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Once the kids have gone to bed<\/p>\n\n\n\n

In my ear they whisper gently<\/p>\n\n\n\n

You’re not good enough mama<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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