So just had a very heated discussion with my husband on the similar subject that we usually have discussions about which is me disagreeing with his views of certain things and reading them as patriarchal and trying to protect and fight for all the unprivileged women of the world, and him feeling like I associate him with all the horrible patriarchal men who just see women as objects and do not respect them so I am really having a difficulty figuring out how to combine fighting for women’s rights and how to create work that is about and supports women in a feminist sense but at the same time to not have it impact my relationship because as of now I feel it is really impacting it and and I’m not sure if that is because I am so focused on fighting for women’s rights and and so devastated with what is happening with women in the US losing their rights daily, making women practically invisible in Afghanistan, where “the de facto authorities (DFA) have issued dozens of directives stripping women and girls of their rights –from education and work to their movement and public decision-making. Girls are banned from secondary school. Women are barred from universities, most jobs, and public spaces such as parks, gyms, and sports clubs” (https://www.unwomen.org/en/articles/faqs/faqs-afghanistan) and with women sacrificing their lives for freedom in Iran, seeing all that I feel I want my husband to be as angry and shaken as me, disagreeing and wanting to make a change, and not just blankly listening to the news and forgetting. I don’t want him feeling personally attacked by me and fighting with me in the name of all men. I believe he should understand where I’m coming from, but I do worry that in the current situation, it will be hard work to sustain a positive and loving relationship and that makes me very sad.
All this sadness and anger fuelled yet another pouring painting, puring out those emotions instead of keeping them inside and choking.
Mistake: I was not able to find the same density paint type so I used something, which I thought was similar, the effect was similar but not the same and more difficult to work with. I might continue with these paints and see if I can possibly add some sort of thinner to make them more liquid.
Discovery: very nice effects coming from collecting the dropped paint and splashing it onto the finished, but still wet piece. I also used it to scrape the paint into the groves of the plastic, very interesting effects.
